Have you ever found yourself not liking something that you were once so passionate about? This is how I feel with music. I no longer have the same passion to perform. Most days, I long to write and work on my business. I have trouble getting up to do music because I would rather spend my time focusing on my current interests. I have been pursuing music for almost two decades. I started as a young child and now I am still in it. I feel the root of my unhappiness is the failure of my decisions. Everything makes no sense. Everything is like murky water. I see the top part but I can not see through the rest. I am in love with this idea of me that I have been trying to become. However, I have continued to fail at bringing this version of me to life.