Do you ever feel inadequate? Inadequate to the people that surround you and are apart of your life. It is a horrible feeling to get during the holidays because you want to keep up the holiday spirit and enjoy that time with loved ones. This holiday season, I am feeling pressured and I think that is making me feel bad about myself. I usually keep myself preoccupied with various activities but that is not working anymore.
I have felt this feeling inconsistently all year during 2019. I was not sure that I was going to graduate because I was not fully focused. I have been going through many emotions at once, ambivalence. I have been so conflicted with emotions and decisions that I am having trouble knowing what I want in all aspects of life. Unfortunately, it is not just post graduate stress. I do not know what my next step will be but I hope I gain help and find reassurance in myself. I plan to try and enjoy the rest of the holiday and not focus on things I can not control right now.